After the Clomid

As you may know I had a follow up ultrasound last week to see if the clomid actually worked. We were checking to see if I had grown any follicles and if they were big enough. The results weren't what we wanted to see. I only had one follicle (he wanted to see 2-4) and it wasn't even big enough for him to want to give me a trigger shot. So we've had to wait it out and make plans for our next cycle, in which he will up my dosage again.  Because of this I've had a hard time being optimistic about us getting pregnant this time around. Our chances just haven't been looking good.

So you'll imagine my surprise when I saw this little dude smiling at me telling me that I'm actually going to ovulate. I'll be honest I know most people don't understand how exciting it is to see that little face, but when I haven't seen him since I got pregnant a year ago I can't help but start to get my hopes up. Fingers crossed we can find better success with this little man than the last one!

One Year

One Year ago today I was the happiest person in the world, nothing (that I knew of) could have knocked me down, I was floating on a cloud. One year ago today I learned that after two and a half years of trying to get pregnant I WAS actually pregnant. One year ago I was telling my amazing husband that I finally was going to make him a father. One year ago today my life was changed forever. In one year there has not been a day that goes by that I don't think about that baby and what could be happening in our lives today if we hadn't lost it.  One year has been the hardest thing I have ever had to endure.
Today October 15th also is the National Day of remembrance for pregnancy and infant loss. How fitting that it lands exactly one year to the day that we found out about our angel baby. Today not only is that angel baby on my mind but every person with their own angel babies are also on my mind. I'm so sorry for the loss and heartache that they have all had to endure and hope that they have/will all be able to find peace in their own losses. Today they are all on my mind, in my heart and in my prayers.

Interesting Combo

Head Cold and Clomid, never had both at the same time its a very interesting experience! I've literally been dizzy all day long, if I move my eyes too fast, if I MOVE I feel like I'm going to fall down dizzy. Which gets very interesting adding teaching preschool into the mix! I will say that I'll take the dizzy over the down right moody any day, either way my poor kids have to deal with me either not feeling well enough to be fully invested or being moody enough that I just get mad at everything. Poor poor kids! Hopefully they don't have to put up with all of this for long!
 I go in next Friday the 12th for an ultrasound to check on my follies and make sure they are making me some awesome eggs. He will also be checking to make sure the Clomid is helping stimulate enough follicles, this way he doesn't up my dosage too much and make me Octomom for this I'm grateful.  If there are plenty and they are big enough then I get to have a trigger shot, I'm not going to lie the trigger scares the pee out of me! Trigger-A shot in my stomach or my rear, to help me drop my eggs. Neither of which sound appealing, BUT I will suck it up because right now this is what might just get us a baby or two! (two for the price of one anybody?)  Wish us luck!